I hope in all my years of living I never forget the breathtaking beauty, simple stillness, and undeniable peace that made up Community 2. I could sit here for hours talking about the perfect landscape and its picturesque beauty, but that wouldn't even begin to scratch the surface on why visiting this community meant so much to me. It was during our 5 day stay in this community that the Lord so graciously showed me what it was like to walk in true freedom in His Spirit. He took me to the very end of myself, where I had nothing left to offer in my own strength, and asked me to step aside and let Him work. And you know what? I did and it was the most free and joyful I have felt in a really, really long time.
As a team, we have been learning a lot about the Holy Spirit. I grew up in the church, so I thought my surface level understandings and definition of who the Holy Spirit is was enough. Little did I know, there was so much more for me to discover. At the beginning of our time in Community 2, I sat in a lot of head knowledge. I was digging deep into Scripture and learning so much about God and what a surrendered life to the Spirit was supposed to look like. It was all great stuff, but I soon grew weary. I was asking myself questions like “Have I ever really walked in the Spirit? What is this freedom Romans 8 keeps talking about? and Would God really choose me, a sinful and messy human, to have His spirit dwell in?” Man, praise Him for not keeping me in that spot for too long. He quickly took all of my head knowledge and turned it into heart knowledge.
I am knocked to my knees when I think about what I experienced in that little brown and blue school. It was a rainy Friday afternoon when I stepped into the classroom and was immediately hit with my own insufficiencies. I knew I would not be able to muster up the right amount of joy, strength, endurance and Bible knowledge to lead those kids that day. For as long as I can remember, I have always relied on myself to lead. He, in all His goodness and patience, chose this day to humble me and break me to a point where only He could pick up the pieces. That day is just a perfect blur of pure joy and peace as I allowed Him to dwell in me and use me to teach so many sweet kiddos about Him and His peace. Wow yes. That is it my people. That is what this whole thing is about.
Romans 8:11 tells me, “If the spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his spirit who dwells in you.” And I think for the first time I let the weight of what that passage says flood every part of my being.
His Spirit is Power, His Spirit is Holy, and His Spirit chooses you and me. Can you even believe that? I know I sure can’t, but I am striving to live every day of my life wrapped in this Truth.
-Katie Toler | Journey 2016 Intern